belajar legowo

iris'
intinya :
iris melakukan pendekatan 'baik hati'. katanya, dia punya pacar baru secepat ini supaya bisa get over/punish me. dan kebetulan cewe itu yang ada di sekitarnya di saat dia sakit hati (trus iris bilang sesuatu yang sangat sangat sangat membesarkan hati gue, tapi ngga bisa gue tulis di sini..). iris juga bilang kalo cerita ini mirip sama kisah cintanya yang dulu, which is true i think (again, she said something that made me feel much much much better, but of course, i cant write it down here). Trus dia bilang sesuatu yang mirip sama apa yang Vincent bilang waktu gue keilangan HP "you'll get something good from all of this..."

at the time, tough we didnt see each other much lately, i know she's still my very best friend.


p's
"jangan sedih2 ya neengs.. you'll be alright. it just takes time. it will heal you (then she said something i can not mention here). you'll be fine, dont worry"


javas'
"kar, i've never see you like this before. Please dont give me that look, ever again.."
i was crying most of the time
i just couldnt stop the tears
and after so many tissues..
j : i got this one silly question.. wud u fight for him?
me : dengan segala kejadian ini, gue ngga tau deh..
j : no, now. dengan kondisi yang sekarang ini, wud u fight for him?
me : nggak
j : rasa sakit hati lo melebihi rasa sayang lo?
me : ya
j : well, kalo gitu lo udah tau jawabannya lo harus gimana.

still j : sebenernya yang dibutuhkan itu adalah cinta yang besar. sekarang dengan lo ngga mau fight for him, mungkin cinta lo ngga sebegitu besarnya.
me : but i did fight for us, til i realize it's too late. i did, do, love him that much. tapi kenyataannya? sekarang dia punya pacar baru. it's a relationship loh, sesuatu yang ngga bisa gue lakukan dengan sembarangan orang.
j : nah, ngomong2 soal cinta yang besar tadi, berarti lo tau dong seberapa cinta dia ke elo. again, lo udah tau jawabannya...

and i keep hearing Finding Beauty in my ears. it's killing me.. slowly.. slowly...