listening to Consequence (Notwist), his favorite word.
"Never leave me paralyzed, love..
Leave me hypnotized, love.."
hari ini gue bener-bener benci sama diri gue sendiri yang ngga pernah kenal kata kapok.
udah berkali-kali dibilangin : JANGAN PAKE HATI! JANGAN PAKE HATI!
tapi dari pertama gue tau yang namanya cinta, gue selalu aja ngeyel.
to be honest, sampe sekarang gue ngga tau rasanya deket sama seseorang yang sangat lo suka, tanpa pake hati. gimana caranya coba??
bukannya itu perasaan yang sangat natural yang timbul, yang terlalu indah untuk dihalang-halangi?
hari ini gue ngerasa sedih banget..
hari ini gue nangis lagi..
i feel so powerless coz the decision has already been made for me.
like i have no right at all to decide where we gonna go.
he was just trying to be realistic, something that we both had already know from the very beginning.
then why does this hurt so much?
how can i be so careless with my own heart? break it into pieces once again..
I miss you.. and I really want to try..
2 comments:
heya non.. :) saran gw siy, mending lo kerja aja.. keep urself loads with chores sampe lo ktiduran krn cape dan ga punya waktu buat hati'lo.. yah, ini pengalaman yg sdh gw buktikan sndiri slama setaun ini menjomblo!! :p ..n' pamper urself laa.. klo suka puisi, bikin puisi, ke salon, spa, nongkrong di qb ato kinokuniya sampe diusir satpam, tur kuliner *nah ini yg paling seruu!!* :p, nraktir nyokap syoping, ANYTHING!! :) tp yg pasti, 1 hal, in the meantime, coba introspeksi diri sndiri jg, based on ur 'sad experience'.. anything u need, tante disini!! huehehe :)
aha. been there. doing it now. meanwhile this heart is very weak. sucks. i know. we all know. i think we are just plain naive, or maybe try to be naive all the time.
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