"and we met again.."

i finally met him again.
i arrived at 9.10 pm, go straight to the upstairs, tried to catch up and found out what was goin' on, which band is performing etc etc.

i looked around, no him around.
my friend ask me to go downstairs, to met her cousin. i thought, why not? maybe he was downstairs. no.

disappointed, i went back upstairs.
few minutes.. i saw a face i really care about, he walked to the room. i heard my friend calling his name. i prepared my self.

he got this nice green-stripes sweater, made him look more adorable. i stopped ma self from running towards him and say "hi!". and.. there he was, looking at me, wave his hand, smiled. i did the same. and ahh.. he came towards me, i was glad.

downstairs, we talked a bit, just between the beat. i dont think could hide ma feeling.
and there, i said it.
and there, he got scared again.

i couldnt stop asking ma self "what the fcuk am i doing again? making him ran off again like that..".

after all the rejections, i dont think i still have he right to even think about him.
im afraid that it's not okay.
im afraid if my feelings scare him.


after all the rejections, i dont think i still have he right to even think about u.
u didnt let me.
u wouldnt let me.

what the heck, im a virgo.
i got every right torture ma self with this shit.
back to ma world sorrow world that i love so much.
think about the things i wouldnt have.
it keeps me alive just to think about it - my sorrow and all the pain.


will i see u again?